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(no subject) [Jul. 3rd, 2016|07:34 pm]
I Need to Change.
After our discussion a couple weeks ago, it's becoming clear.  She's already left me, she just still has one foot in the door.

I never wanted to end up alone, no matter how it may seem.  I guess I just need someone who will believe in me, even when times are hard.
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(no subject) [Apr. 20th, 2016|08:43 pm]
I Need to Change.
I really need help, but I'm so afraid to seek it out.
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(no subject) [Mar. 3rd, 2016|05:42 am]
I Need to Change.
Now my friend Tony is telling me he has pancreatic cancer.  He just found out a couple weeks ago.  Mom will most likely be okay after her surgery in April, but pancreatic is still basically a death sentence.  I don't know what else to say.
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(no subject) [Mar. 1st, 2016|03:13 pm]
I Need to Change.
Now my mom has cancer.  Basal cell carcinoma above her right ear.  She let it go for about 4 years without getting it checked.  After everything worked out with my dad I'm feeling more optimistic than I would have before, but hearing her cry when she called to tell me just killed me.  I should be there, but she wants time.
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(no subject) [Aug. 4th, 2015|01:20 pm]
I Need to Change.
My friend Dustin from the Bunker killed himself today.
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(no subject) [Jun. 7th, 2015|10:25 am]
I Need to Change.
The dream I just had ripped a hole in me.  I need to get out of this apartment today.  I can't stay in here alone.
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(no subject) [Jun. 3rd, 2015|04:12 pm]
I Need to Change.
I am 4 weeks into DDPYoga and for the first time in years, I just touched my toes with my legs straightened.  I didn't think that was something that was possible for me.  I think this is a program I can actually stick with!
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(no subject) [May. 14th, 2015|09:52 pm]
I Need to Change.
I had an idea for a fun culinary project today, and hopefully I can spend the summer working it out.  I want to learn one new recipe a week, since I'm currently proficient at creating just a woeful few complete meals.  I'm going to ask people in my life for one recipe that they really like to make on their own, then spend the summer learning that set of recipes.  It'd be a good way to get me a foundation of recipes to work with.  Plus I know a diverse enough group of people that it'll cover all sorts of cuisine, and each recipe will have a personal connection to its source.
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(no subject) [Feb. 26th, 2015|09:17 pm]
I Need to Change.
Make progress, not excuses.
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(no subject) [Feb. 26th, 2015|04:04 pm]
I Need to Change.
I'm having a really hard time trying to adjust to a post-Parks and Recreation world.
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(no subject) [Feb. 25th, 2015|07:28 am]
I Need to Change.
Kinetic frustration transfer.
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(no subject) [Feb. 13th, 2015|05:09 pm]
I Need to Change.
Friendly reminder to myself that I am blessed that no one reads this.  I need to remember that I have freedom here to say what I feel, and my thoughts will not be used against me (anymore).
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(no subject) [Feb. 10th, 2015|12:26 am]
I Need to Change.
It's so hard to watch her poison herself day after day and meet any attempt to help with extreme resistance.
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(no subject) [Feb. 7th, 2015|12:56 am]
I Need to Change.
It's hard being a grown-up.
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(no subject) [Feb. 5th, 2015|05:17 pm]
I Need to Change.
I don't have a brain tumor.  I'm not sure why hearing that news didn't relieve me more.  The damage to my hearing is permanent, in any case.  I really need to learn sign language, sooner than later...
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(no subject) [Jan. 25th, 2015|10:07 am]
I Need to Change.
Today I finally get my MRI.  I've been so freaked out about it that I did absolutely nothing all weekend.  It'll be good to get out of limbo and move on, regardless of the outcome.
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(no subject) [Jan. 18th, 2015|11:41 pm]
I Need to Change.
Even with this broken body, tonight I somehow feel young.  I miss knowing less, feeling more, and having the energy and ambition to save the world (but from what or whom, I don't know).
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(no subject) [Dec. 11th, 2014|02:42 pm]
I Need to Change.
My first semester at SU is wrapping up and I'm more than ready for a month off.  I feel I've done fantastic work there thus far, but being on a year-to-year contract has kept me from getting very comfortable.  Impostor syndrome is also in full effect, but hey, when has it ever not been?
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(no subject) [Dec. 11th, 2014|01:12 am]
I Need to Change.
We all need our safe spaces.
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(no subject) [Jul. 22nd, 2014|05:19 pm]
I Need to Change.
I often feel I'm the only sane person in a crazy world.  This is not the first time the previous sentence has been written, and it's almost always followed by further statements that immediately contradict the writer's initial assertion.

Even so, I feel that way.  Confirmation bias, fundamental attribution errors, and essentially every logical fallacy are collectively a helluva drug.
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