||[Jul. 11th, 2016|09:06 pm]
I Need to Change.
I finally heard from her. She didn't want to talk, or to see me. Now she wants to wait until Saturday to talk again. I fought for the relationship but I feel like it fell on deaf ears. Part of me hopes she remembers this journal exists and comes to read it. I doubt she does or will, though.|
I tried, so hard. But depression got the best of me these past few years. Now I'm losing her because of it. I thought she would understand given that she battles it too, but I fear she's already killed whatever parts of her that loved me. She tries to be too logical in times like this. I think she's too afraid to let herself hurt this much.
All I know is that I can't wait until Saturday. This is killing me.